| everything is okay |
[Jul. 30th, 2004|11:41 pm] |
everything in my life is stable. that is a really good thing, because these last few months have been aweful. like horrible. so many regrets i wish that i could take away, so many things left unsaid and shielded from others. my mistaken identity, as a stupid redhead. i have so much more to give. Time to show the real nicole. Overly smart, honest and trustworthy. not stupid, backstabbing, and hated. aweful words storm through my brain as i think of what has happened. i never want it to happen again.
at school i am trying to get my life in order, and for the first time in my life, i have stopped trying to impress guys and focuse on my friends, i have no idea what i would do without them. I can never have a sudden change, im ust work at it.
life is good. im in a group. pita girls. eah i know stupid
i am PITA I.
Forgive me.
-nicole- |
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| MY MOMMIE |
[Jun. 28th, 2004|08:05 pm] |
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| | headstrong-trapt | ] |
so my mom got surgery and stuff and i just went to a volleyball camp from 8:30-5:00pm , so like the WHOLE day monday
or today...i have to take care of my momma...
at the volleyball camp i met some really awesome girls! ones name is Jordan, then Kim, then Caitlin, they are soo sweet! and then we talked about franklin munford for a while cuz this girl named allison knew him... it was really tough and i think that
iFrEeKmIsLfOwT: but seriously i've been wanting to go to the beach for a while
iFrEeKmIsLfOwT: i could show off my awesome hawaiian surfing skillz
he is sooo funnny..!! i feel bad that i didnt go to his eagle thing!! i was so sad haha! i love him lol!
last night like, we had a camp fireside, i said a talk and it was really funny!!! and it was just awesome!!!! it was this
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My talk
-It rained for like an hour every day at camp, it seemed like it liked to rain on us when we just got to the pool, or when our meeting ended in the mess hall and we were heading back to our cabins;… which somehow ended up the furthest away.
Consequences, such as getting completely drenched unless you ran, then you would…still get completely drenched, or loosing your flip flop in this disgusting mud, (the leaders probably planned that one seeing as we weren’t really supposed to be wearing flip-flops in the first place. Those were the serious issues.
I was a 4th year and was planning on having a great experience of going on an overnight hike…which began with an air conditioned, tick-free car ride that seemed like luxury to us. The other forth years from our ward, Marta, Katherine, and Juliana, learned some awesome card games and played them the whole way down. Juliana and Marta taught Katherine and myself this game called NERVIOSO, and I was so nervous I was sweating even before we started our hike…and I thought THAT was sweating…our hike was so long, and so tiring, and I saw way too many spiders for my own comfort and we were literally climbing over massive trees, it didn’t even feel like girls camp anymore, it was more of a boot camp, if I might say so myself.
Youth leaders insured us though, “were almost there.” We weren’t. Good thing for our Adult leader Sister Youd, or else we would probably still be there on our billion-mile hike around the world because we went on the wrong trail several times.
We finally got to our campsite, and seeing as Cary 2 has to uphold our reputation of being…well...the best, we set up our tent first, with the help of brother Everett, of course… So me, Katherine and Marta are standing there admiring our beautiful tent (and Juliana is spraying it down with bug spray) when im like, I wonder how many people this tent was built for.
So we all huddle around and we see the tag, and we are like. Ohhhh great, this is a 3 man tent and there’s 4 of us, and I’m thinking to myself, oh great, I could stay in this tent by myself and it would be too small. But it worked out ok.
We had a lot of certification to do, certification is individual or group responsibilities that have to be done in order to pass for that year. Some of the certification that we had to do was prepare a meal using two different methods of cooking, haha one was the chef cooking, and the other was Brother Everett teaching us how to cook food on a fire. A really fun certification was observing the night’s sky, and finding two constellations, the night was incredible, it didn’t rain at all, and it was completely clear. You could see all the stars and it was just amazing. Those are some of the moments you really remember in camp.
The next morning Cary 2nd woke up WAY to early, and we were soo crammed in our tent, it was impossible to stay in the tent any longer than we needed to, so we took down our tent and packed our bags, picked up trash, and realized…no one was even up yet. But then we heard a noise and Sister Youd comes walking down, (she got to sleep in her car) naturally, we asked if we could help, and things came shooting out, such as clean up all the trash, wake everyone up, help clear off tables, and that sort of stuff. We did that, and ended up packing everyone’s bags and chairs into a trailer for the trip home.
(I mean to camp)
On the way back, it wasn’t the same, the bond that was established between us fourth years was so strong, and so was the spirit. We read scriptures on the way back to camp and were relieved when we got to stop for ice cream at a gas station.
We got back and were SO excited; man, cots, and cabins were such luxury to us.
Overall, I didn’t think I wanted to go on the overnighter, but I am so glad I did, that was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had at camp. And then you realize you only have on more night, and you make the best of it. And we did.
Looking back, you realize why being able to have the spirit and being able to have friendship, why it’s so important…but you cant explain it, you have to feel it, and we did.
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| Umff |
[Jun. 21st, 2004|06:50 pm] |
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| | Ocean Avenue- yellowcard | ] |
i had to work with my mom today. it was pretty fun i suppose. anyways im kinda bored right now. my mom has to get surgery on friday for her achilles. its gonna be crazy bad. its gonne hurt and shes gonna like cry and stuff. My best friend rachelle is throwin up and sick. so its gonna be an insane week. i need some hemp rope to make things im going tomorrow early in the morning.
bye! |
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| Ahh |
[Jun. 20th, 2004|06:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sexy and hot | ] |
| [ | music |
| | surfer girl- beach boys | ] |
so the LAX thing went awesome and i finally got to see my dad.
so me and my mom went out to eat at carrabas and OMG there were so many hot guys there that were working and they were all winking at me and stuff, it was so awesome! like my mom says i will NEVER have to worry about getting a guy..and i dont think so either hehe!i mean the guys would walk around and check me out then go back to their buddies and be like.."yeah, thats what im talkin about" hahaha DANG! its cuz i was wearing a really lowcut short dress and it was tight haha all the guys liked it too and so did I!! so anyways, fathers days has been awesom e and i reallly love guys hehe!!!!
YESSS THEY WERE SO DANG HOT!!!
Love you soooooooo much
*nicole*
ps..camp was amazing fun! |
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| Crazy |
[Jun. 11th, 2004|11:45 am] |
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| |  relieved | ] |
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| | Sugarcult-Pretty Girl | ] |
So im Going to my brothers LAX tournament tomorrow which is saturday and then on Sunday. so yeah, i went to the LAX practise to watch the game, and i saw guys looking at me, my first reaction was like...danget, there making fun of me cuz im ugly...and little did i know they were NOT talking about how ugly i was, but how hot i was. heheh! yay! i was pretty excited, its nice to see that i do have options outside of Cary freakin Academy..egh...i hate that school. my mom wont let me switch though.
so my brother told me that the guys, (since theyve never me me) are using me as "Eyecandy"... That is a HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE compliment! haha, its like, wow..thanks! i am soo much more confident lol. I cant wait to meet them..Oooo i got to look hot. haha... My brother said over half the team was talking about me, like how hot i was...thats AWESOME the other half have girlfriends, hehe but they talked about me anyways. GUys are so untrustworthy i swear! haha... i cant WAIT till the LAX tournament hehe! YAY!
*Nicole* |
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| Yay |
[Jun. 10th, 2004|09:05 am] |
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| | chipper | ] |
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| | jojo- leave (get out) | ] |
so i had to clean out the WHOLE Refridgerator. i dunno how to spell that lol. its all good now though.
get out
right now
its the end of you and me
its to late
and i cant wait
for you to be gone
cuz i know about her
and i wonder
how i bought all the lies
you said you would treat me right
but you were just a waste of time.
that is an amazing song
download it-
jojo-leave(getout)
My best friend rachelle has jus left to go to the beach with this girl named marty. haha im never invitied. oh well.
my brother never goes to parties, its so annoying, cuz this one i wasnt gonna be there and he still didnt go.
he is like an antisocialist but i love him anyways!
Im gonna go tan by the pool. so call me anytime you want...
i havent been to the pool yet this year so im excited haha!
yay!
talk to you later,
nicole
gtg bye |
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| Guess what? |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|04:35 am] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | Juvenile-slow motion | ] |
So guess what? My brother is like CRAZY good at LAX so i get to go to his game at this all conferance thing, theres gonna be players from canda coming, this is how big it is, I CANT WAIT!! hot guys...you know it!!
huh. |
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| SO happy! |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|04:26 am] |
OOO i just want to tell my greatest friend in the world Kaitlin Day that i am so sorry for all the crap i put you through! i love you hun and im so glad we are on good terms now. haha cant wait till you know who leaves lol...YEAH...
cristina hiltcher! i dunno what i would do without you babe! you are the sweetest person alive, and i cant wait till EFY that will be a blast. it sux that kaitlin couldnt come! ill tlak to you later!
I LOVE YOU LADIES!!!
So today...nothing happened...im sore from the gym...pain is pleasure..ya know haha...
Love you,
Nicole |
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